this little piggy went to the special market next to UCLA

My boys met their half brother for the first time this week. He and his mother traveled here from Boston with no other plan than to see us. (well, we are going to Disneyland and Legoland and any other overstimulating pricey land we can hit this week) They also have a half sister in LA and two younger brothers just outside of Cleveland. for this week, we were only able to get the four together.

All that have come forward are either single moms by choice (SMC) or two mommy families.
i don't find it odd that we are all women raising these children or that we are all of "advanced maternal age" either. for me, it feels like the natural progression of science and society. i don't mean that as a slam to men either, as i am raising two of them myself. i have a fondness for males in a way that makes me feel like they are largely misunderstood and perhaps next in line for a revolutionary shift. renaissance rebellion...or something along those lines, but i don't want to go off on that tangent just right yet.

it has been profoundly humbling to suddenly find that your very unique children are not so because here you have just watched another little guy tilt his head to one side the same way, or make that squeaky noise when they're really happy or say "mommy" in the exact same tone. their heads smell the same...THEIR FEET ARE EXACTLY THE SAME! when i hug these other children they feel like they are mine and i'm altogether taken by how protective i've immediately become. the affection has run rampant and even these little guys are all over eachother. falling into a big heap on the living room floor.

as much as i wish to scrub away that part of my sons with my own nurturing, i cannot deny that mother nature has a greater will. whomever this man is, donor 3442, he sure can make some fantastic little creatures.

oh and the women i have bonded with over these wee beans...well, they are just as extraordinary. fate has a way of kicking my ass...i could blather on about that but i'm tired and have much to do before we hit the Happiest Place On Earth tomorrow.

no soap, dope....radio!

This is the best thing ever. one of my sons has suddenly taken to telling jokes. they make absolutely no sense, but damn, are they funny. so much so that he has trouble getting them out. i did this today to send to Nana and i can't stop watching it. i know what she's gonna say....i just know it and i think so too....

Vogue Bambini

how cute are my boys? David got sand in his eye and Wyatt was bending in close to try and see it...and it was making David laugh. [snap] and it made page 141 of the May/June 2008 issue in a Ralph Lauren editorial. oh, and that little girl looks just like Drew Barrymore, don't cha think? never paid this much for a magazine though.

what-ever. listen to me....sounding like all those hideous stage moms i meet in those over crowded rooms. i swear, if they never get a call again, i'd be right fine with that. this will go in a keepsake box i have for them. [dusts off palms in a quick criss-cross motion] enough.

question everything

i'm shopping in Kohl's and i notice a whole line women's clothing called Sag Harbor. i want to meet the brain trust behind that one? i mean, i realize this is probably a real place on the map, but women's clothing? really? this is especially cutting if you happen to be over 40....somewhere there is a group of marketing execs laughing themselves silly....

under the covers....

music....music....how i love it so. can someone tell me where i've heard Brett Dennen's, "Ain't No Reason", out in the world? a movie perhaps? i just can't stop playing it lately. felt the same way about Amos Lee....and Ingrid Michaelson! where did she come from? "The Way I Am" is damn catchy. when i find a good song i swear it's magical and healing and somehow restorative to my core. anyway, that's not what i wanted to ramble about.....

someone mentioned covers. i married a musician so i know a thing or two about these matters. (although i think i like music more than she does) and covers, well, that's a tough call. ya have to have a special something to release a cover. could be the arrangement or the quality of the vocal but either way, it has to be beyond the original lest it fall flat.....

so tonight...at this, the midnight hour...i give you the cover mix blasting in my headphones.

What are some of your favorite covers?

Bumper crop

Last year we hacked the crap out of the plumb tree for the sake of props...a display project. this year we have a bumper crop of fruit. i had no idea what a colossal pain in the arse it is to make plumb jam, but now that i think of it, it's not usually found on the shelf at the local piggly-wiggly, now is it?

things to remember II

Driving down the Las Vegas strip...at night...pointing out the castle! the big city!



"look boys! the pyramid and sphinx."




david turns to wyatt and says, "hey wyatt! the pyramid stinks!"

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